Trauma Becomes a Testimony

Did you read Age 2: Fight? If not, please do so before you read this one.

Can you imagine a child age 2 waking up with no adult or anyone around?

Around age 2 I also was in a car accident. My biological mother jumped out of the car, a man in the seat in front of me grabs me as he is getting out, I see the car flip off the cliff.

Age 4, she found a strange woman inside a newspaper (so I was told) and never came back.

I later discovered she had Schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, and depression, and passed away from an overdose around the time I was allowed to speak to her again.

On my 34th birthday, I decided to commit to overcoming the 30 years of trauma I had been holding onto that had jeopardized all of my past relationships and was starting to damage my current ones. However, the primary relationship I needed to heal first was the one I had with God.

I began shutting down my business and then decided to downsize to ensure I could still keep working with the flexibility needed to heal. This happened after I noticed the impact my working so much had on my children.

However, the moment I truly saw the light was when I realized the only love I have ever needed was that from GOD. He walked me across the street when there was nobody else. He protected me from falling off the cliff with that car and allowed me a safe space with a babysitter who did the right thing. Once I realized this, I immediately started speaking with the Lord.

Things immediately started shifting in my life almost instantly.

God has been making moves that I can clearly see and follow, unlike anything I have ever experienced before. Sometimes it is not so clear, and I have to seek guidance from my spiritual guide and pray.

I know for certain that in order for me to work my way through all of the things I need to work through it will require what I call "the team", the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit.

I was 100% right to say God created a warrior. I was meant to tell my story, not as my story, but as the story of how God truly loves us and how Jesus has saved us so that God could forgive us.

I have been saved 2, maybe 3 times now. I have been baptized, but when I received the last neurological diagnosis, I had fallen back into old habits and became lost again. It took my mental health, feeling as though it was completely out of control and seeing my issues start to affect my children, family, and relationships and some serious worship music and shouting to the Lord to help me with all of my heart and confessing that He IS the only Love I have ever needed and I AM READY!

Because I am new to sharing the gospel I definitely Googled this testimonial thing because the only thing I fear now is God and making a mistake in sharing His Word. I looked up what a religious testimonial was and came to this