Age 2: Fight

“Some people survive childhood. Others spend adulthood learning they no longer have to.” - Founder, The 4F Club

Introduction:

This space was created for healing.

I am a real person who has chosen to remain anonymous until I reach my goal. The stories shared here are real because I lived them.

This is not a place for criticism, judgment, or negativity. This is my journey toward healing, faith, and freedom.

I hope that whoever reads these words finds the courage to begin their own healing journey or shares this with someone who may be avoiding the inevitable, as I did for so many years, hoping the pain would just disappear on its own.

P.S. It didn’t.

Dear 2-Year-Old Self,

It has been 30 years since you woke up in that dark, empty house, stopped by a stranger asking where your coat was, before walking across the busy highway only to find your mother at the bar across the street.

I am writing to tell you that you no longer have to fight for survival.

You are enough.

You do not need to be shown or told that you are worthy. When God created you, He created a warrior, not just a survivor.

You made it across that highway with nobody beside you but God guiding you every step of the way.

I am here to tell you that you can finally stop seeking others' approval.

You were only two years old when your fight for survival began, and now, at 34, you can finally begin to experience freedom.

This is only the beginning, but I want you to know that I am doing this for you, for me, and for every version of us that had no choice but to fight through the years.

I also hope you do not mind that we are allowing others to witness this journey, too. Not because we want our lives placed on public display for judgment, humiliation, or destruction, but because maybe someone else reading our story will find the courage to begin their own healing journey.

Love, 34yr Old Self

Trauma: Abandonment

Age: 2

Step 1: Write yourself a letter.